Published on Sunday October 31, 2004 .
It’s a warm Halloween here in LA. Heather and I are cooking chili and cornbread while drinking some Merlot and keeping a watch out for trick-or-treaters. We only have 4 pieces of mini candy-bars left because *someone* (not me) ate all the other bags of candy (that’s what you get when you buy the candy too early). So now I’m only answering the gate (we kept the gate locked because of the neighborhood) when I see 4 or less kids since I don’t want to be like, “sorry kid, you don’t get a treat ’cause we ran out of candy.”
Happy Halloween. Only 56 days left for Christmas shopping, as I’ve been told by advertisers. Crazy huh?
Published on Saturday October 30, 2004 .
I thought I was clever to think of this title but doing a google search rendered many others with the same problem. How ironic. Creative constipation seems to be as common as getting a cold.
Published on Thursday October 28, 2004 .
One thing I hate is that when I spend a lot of time working on left brain computer stuff (the last two weeks, 16 hours a day) I get a creative block. Then it takes a couple of days for me to get the creative mojo flowing again. If I had the financial freedom, I would spend all day doing creative things like taking dance classes, martial arts, acting classes, writing spoken word poetry, reading books, writing my movie, singing/taking voice lessons, playing the vioin/piano, and any other creative thing that would come to mind.
Published on Tuesday October 26, 2004 .
We had our first reading the other night and everybody is excited to start production on the film. So far, it looks like this will be the ONLY acting job I will have booked this year. I also have had very few auditions as compared to the past. It’s all very depressing if I dwell on it so I try not to. Instead I continue to push forward trying to make my own opportunities by creating my own production…
Published on Monday October 25, 2004 .
10. My feet are wet ’cause I just took a shower. I hope she doesn’t think I have sweaty feet.
9. I hope she doesn’t think my feet are nasty. I do need a pedicure…
8. I should’ve worn newer underwear.
7. Damn, I just remembered my underwear is tattered.
6. I wonder if she has ever had clients with nasty skin problems.
5. I hope I’m not one of those clients.
(legs folded like a pretzel, lifted in the air and twisted backwards 45 degrees)
4. This position could be kinky if it didn’t hurt like hell.
3. Even though it hurts, don’t scream like a girl.
2. I wonder if she can tell I work out a lot.
1. This is the best massage I have ever had!
Published on Sunday October 24, 2004 .
My fingers fly across the keyboard while windows open and close, move forward and back on the LCD screen. I effortlessly move between systems on the internet and applications on the computer moving information around in the virtual world. I am stuck in the machine, living in the internet. There is something very seductive and appealing with having the knowledge and power to move and manipulate information in the virutal world - across boundries and barriers setup to stop most people. I’ve lived in this world for so long I know shortcuts and backdoors to manipulate, change, add, delete and retrieve all kinds of information living on the vast internet. But I feel trapped in this left brain world. My right brain screams to be released from this virtual world - to experience freedom in the tangible world - to manipulate information in a different way - a way that connects my heart and soul to people. A way that creates a virtual network of emotional connections to peoples hearts and minds.
My right brain commands my fingers to fly across the keyboard and create a new interface. An interface which taps into my heart and soul and display it’s content on the internet. Hopefully someone will see the signs and help me become more than a ghost in the machine.
Published on Tuesday October 19, 2004 .
I want to unleash the passion in my soul. I want to free myself of the chains that bind my emotions. I want to think with my gut and follow my heart instead of succumbing to the social restraints that have been burned in my mind. I want to scream out loud and have tears of joy. I want to be free.
Published on Monday October 18, 2004 .
On Saturday, Heather and I (with the help of our friend Jeff as the camera man) shot a video of us giving a tour of our house restoration. I then spent the rest of the weekend trying to figure out how to edit the video and produce a DVD version. What was suppose to be a “simple edit session” turned into hours of researching and tinkering with software and hardware. What I ultimately discovered is that I need new video equipment. My 5 year old Hi-8 video camera with only analog connections forces me to use an analog to digital converter just to get the video into the computer to edit. The quality is also pretty bad. But it was a good introduction into video editing and production. It gets me one-step closer to making my own movie.
I’ll post the web version of our video tour soon…
Published on Thursday October 14, 2004 .
Over the past couple of days I’ve been working almost ’round the clock on 1912bungalow.com. Turns out that we have a shot to get on a new DIY Network show dealing on old house restorations. Someone has also refeerred us to Oprah who is putting together a segment on LA house restorations as well. So I’m talking to the producers for the DIY Network show, getting the site in shape and producing a small video for submission to Oprah. I also found out how to register your house with the Los Angeles film commission for film and TV productions. One of my acting coaches told me that he was paid $5k a day just so a production company coould shoot exterior shots of his house! We always see production trucks around the neighborhood and just the other night I was watching “Point of Origin” on HBO and a few scenes featured a house and neighborhood which is very close to our house. So my house might be the one to get the “big break” before me.
Otherwise, I’ve been starting to read the script for the independent movie I’ve been cast in (Mah Jong). Shooting starts in Nov. The acting studio has also been hounding me to take Master Class this month. I would love to do it because it is so very intense, but schedule and money are an issue. My friend Jeff and I continue to meet to try to write our 1st short movie. Right now we’re still hashing ideas.
Now I guess I should sleep a couple hours. I wish I didn’t have to sleep I like working in the still of the night.
BTW, doesn’t it seem like Christmas starts sooner every year?
Published on Tuesday October 12, 2004 .
I can understand putting on a few pounds of muscle for a role (Will Smith for Ali, Hugh Jackman for X-Men) or even getting chubby for a role (Charlize Theron for Monster, Renee Zelwegger for Bridget Jones Diary) but Christian Bale gets the insane award for starving himself to look like a “walking skeleton”. He lost an alarming 60lbs for the movie “The Machinist” and looks like he was in a concentration camp. That definitely cannot be healthy. Then when the shooting wrapped, he had to bulk up to start shooting Batman.
